Tuesday, December 29, 2015

All this has happened before, and all this will happen again

I definitely pulled the old "wrote a long post only to delete the whole thing" move while i was in Denmark.
Oh well.
At least the pictures where spared from the cutting process!

I'm back in Berlin now, and it's great and awful at the same time.
Life is great and awful at the same time?
Yesterday i went to IKEA, out to dinner, and to a bar.
Today i went to a café to write.
I've done that a few times since getting a laptop that's actually portable.
When i'm out, i don't write for my blog, just for me.
Well, technically i'm writing a book, except it's never gonna be published and no one will ever read it, so basically, just for me.
Sometimes you gotta write a shitty book, just so you can tell yourself you wrote a book, am i right?

I wanna do a retrospective post like the one i accidentally wrote last year, but i can already feel my hands drifting away from the keyboard, telling me "not today".
Maybe tomorrow, until then, here's part two of a classic photo dump.

Took a day trip to Leipzig last week with my American roommate (and Lucifer, who probably wasn't supposed to be on the bus, but whatever, we snuck him on anyway)

Possibly the best coffee shop in town? The only one that impressed me, anyway!

The whole city was one big Christmas market

Stopped in to a church... to take pictures for instagram, and charge my phone

Before leaving for Denmark i was busy helping the guy redecorate his apartment

Turned out pretty nice


A Christmas present i made

Early morning at Tegel airport

Airport bathroom selfie

Worst coffee ever

I arrived in the afternoon, weather was, uhm, great

Out walking and feeding cows with my mom and cousin Nikolaj

We had one day with nice weather, and that's not bad for an un seasonally warm Danish Christmas

Clara the chicken

Christmas dinner for four

I missed the sea

My backpack was full of presents, so i couldn't fit much clothes, hence the overdoing of the face

My mom made ris a l'amande cheesecake, it was so heavy i fell asleep minutes after eating it

It rained all day, and we went for a walk anyway... big mistake, even the cows looked so over it

Our Christmas tree was a nice one this year

My mom and her grandson on the beach, collecting shells and dinosaur bones

And here they are on the couch, playing some kind of game they invented and laughing their asses off

Me and Gilbert trying out the macbook photobooth

Thursday, December 24, 2015

Season's greetings

No, this isn't the second photo dump, if you were wondering!
This is just a quick little post, from me to you, my readers, to say happy holidays.

It's a little misleading, since i don't have Lucifer with me this year... and i already posted a picture of him and his moose, but whatever, he's cute enough to post twice!
I just wanted to say that even though i don't always remember to respond to emails (planning on getting better at that!) and comments, i appreciate them all, and i appreciate everyone who reads my rants on a regular basis and make me feel, well... liked! And not alone.
You're my internet family and you're all really special.

I hope those of you who like this sort of thing, the Christmas thing, are all celebrating in whatever way you do in your part of the world, with people you love.
And to those of you who don't celebrate, i hope you're having a great regular old Thursday.

I have to go help my mom cook now... and by cook i mean get in her way, and eat things i'm not supposed to eat yet.
Holiday style.
Be back in a few days with a normal-ish post.

Wednesday, December 23, 2015

The first part of a classic photo dump

I arrived in Denmark yesterday.
Sleepy, because i was on a morning flight.
I don't know why i always book those.
Do i just forget how much i absolutely loathe getting up early?
Ugh, never again, i say now, knowing that i will in fact do it again.
But at least i was on time and not hungover, much unlike last year, so i guess i do learn from some mistakes!

It's a smaller Christmas this year.
The part of my family that was here last Christmas won't be here tomorrow night, and some of them i won't get to see at all on this trip.
But it's ok. 
It's just me, my parents, and my cousin Nikolaj this year, and it's nice, and it's chill.
And to be honest, i'm just happy to not be hurting this year, and the memories i've been afraid of reliving by being here in the winter, haven't been haunting me at all.
So yay for that.
And yay for eating, and napping, and going for walks, and taking pictures of chickens and cows, and staying up late talking to my family, and watching bad Swedish thrillers on TV.

As the title suggests, i'll be posting another photo dump shortly, probably heavy on the Christmas photos.
And cows.
Lots of fluffy cows.

Now i must head to the kitchen to sample some more food.
Possibly cheesecake.
Life is hard.

One of those classic Kreuzberg shots

Selfie with dog on the day i picked him up

Still loving that Roamers decor

In the advent kalender one day: the hipster card game, which is hilarious, by the way

Lucifer got advent presents too, here he is posing with his moose

Star Wars marathon Sunday a couple of weeks ago

More decor, cause i'm obsessed

Black and white scrunchie, an advent present so cute i had to post it twice

At a biker Christmas market in Steglitz... Berlin is so fucking weird sometimes

And later that day, i found myself hungover at another Christmas market, only this one was at a Buddhist monastery way outside the city

They had little fluffy horses there

Hanging at Taiko with the dog on a random afternoon

The Christmas market at Arena was cute and had awesome food and drinks

I made bae try the Japanese korokke with bulldog sauce and kewpie mayo

Tamago yaki for lunch at Cocoro with a friend

Another advent present: awesome hot sauce made in Berlin (Lucifer was not impressed, but i was stoked)

Monday, December 7, 2015

Stay gold

From the iPhone journal: 

The moment you realize you like someone, it's already too late. 
It's kinda like when you're eating and you realize you're full.
At that point you've already been full for a while, and you're actually about to feel a little sick.

Leftover analog photos from my first trip to the abandoned water park in Neukölln, and a couple of shots from a great day of shopping, walking, eating, and coffee drinking with my handsome guy about a month ago.

I know i said i'm not much of an autumn person, but i still miss being surrounded by colorful autumn leaves.

Friday, December 4, 2015

Three years

Does this look funny?
Like, does anything look... not normal, on the blog?
I finally (finally!) got a new laptop. 
One that works. 
One that doesn't take half an hour to start up.
One that doesn't crash or freeze every five minutes.
One that doesn't play movies on Netflix in slow motion, something i'd sadly gotten kinda used to!
It's pretty much a dream come true.

However, me and this fancy new machine, we don't know each other very well yet, so just editing pictures for the blog, and figuring out where stuff is... well, its taking me forever.
And everything looks... different.
But in a good way! 
A way where things function, and laptops can be removed from their power supply without immediately dying. 
Good times.

Ok, so that was the technical update portion of this post, as for the actual content?
I feel like i've gotten pretty bad at just blogging about everyday life.
Maybe because everyday life is this weird limbo-like grey area in which i feel busy, even though i don't have a full time job, and the days just kinda fly by and melt together with no real sense of order and direction.

Adding to that general feeling of weirdness, is the fact that yesterday was my three year anniversary of living in Berlin, and i still don't quite know what i'm doing here.
Don't get me wrong, i don't currently want to live anywhere else, and those rare moments where i regretted moving here in the first place are a thing of the past, but still... you know how i get with anniversaries.
Shit like that just gets you thinking, that's all.
And people like me, like a lot of us, worriers, over thinkers, even more so.

Some days, like yesterday, i'll walk down Karl-Marx-Strasse, thinking i'm the luckiest for even getting to live here.
I know my way around Berlin, i love my new neighborhood, i love knowing where the best places to eat and drink are, and how to get there most efficiently. In that way i feel more connected to Berlin than i ever did to Copenhagen, which sometimes just felt like the place i happened to be born.
On those days i feel like i am one with this city, and i almost can't imagine living anywhere else.
And other days, like today, i feel like the loneliest person in the world, stuck in a place where i have no roots, no family, only a few close friends who might leave at any time, an apartment, and a part time dog.
But i know those feelings are just temporary, and possibly hormonal or even seasonal, to be honest.
And there's a good chance that tomorrow, i'll be walking down the street, taking pictures and smiling at grumpy Germans, and feeling as much at home here as i ever did anywhere.

But yeah, to get back to the everyday life portion of this post, my mom recently visited me in Berlin.
Without my dad!
And although i obviously love my dad, it was so nice to spend some alone time with my mom.
Shopping, sightseeing and just walking and talking, something we're both pretty good at.
Showing her places that are special to me, and having her spend time in my home with my chosen family.
It was something i've always wanted to do, but never really considered an option since my parents usually do everything together.

No analog photos this time, but i do have a draft with a few extra pictures from my last film, so maybe i'll post those tomorrow?

Sorry for the incoherent mess, but not all posts are meant to be eloquent and profound.
Some are just here to provide a kick in the butt.
Or to practice typing and photo editing on a brand new computer.

Mom and Lucifer at Tempelhof

The abandoned water park

My mom had wanted to go since the first time i posted pictures from there

It was just as awesome as the first time, even though my camera malfunctioned and i was carrying around a deceptively heavy dog

We also went to some nice restaurants...

We went shopping (also with dog, of course)...

And we chilled at home... obviously Lucifer's favorite part of the visit


Snapchatting with the dog at Taiko 

An afternoon in Kreuzberg

I don't do a lot of shopping these days, but when i do, the shit i come home with usually has emojis on it

The newest addition to our little Berlin family is American, so of course we threw a Thanksgiving dinner party... and it was epic to say the least

A Dane, an American, a Canadian, and an Australian move into an apartment in Neukölln, and the wacky expat sitcom basically writes itself

The next day we needed a lot of these in order to get started on the clean up... a lot...

First day of snow, and of course i got caught in it wearing only leggings and a much too short jacket

Brunch at a cute café with my guy and his friends earlier that day, while it was snowing outside

Sriracha the hamster is now so tame i feel bad that i can't stay up with her all night

Been working on this forever

My pink hair with dark roots look wasn't really working for me anymore, so Wendy bleached the crap out of it, and i am now a sandy blonde

On December first, i woke up to this incredible surprise: an advent calendar full of amazing presents just for me... it's been four days and i still can't believe it...

My present on December second was a print by an artists who had an exhibition opening at my best friends gallery the next day... what are the damn odds?!

I helped out at the show, which was last night, and it was a huge success... i'm so proud of Wendy for hosting such a cool event, and for having such a successful business in a city she hadn't even visited only three years ago

 Can't wait to see this handsome dude again next week