The short version

Ok, so i already did the official "we went to London" post on the other blog, so i figured i can slack a bit on this one.
Right?
It's not that i don't wanna blog here, although i know it may sometimes seem like it, it's just that so much is going on with me, that i feel like i can't write about anything without somehow getting into things that require a deeper explanation. And like most bloggers, i'm always struggling with "too-personal-not-personal-enough" balance.
But in short; i've been having a lot of anxiety this year.
I've been suffering from anxiety and panic attacks for years, but this year it's just gotten so much worse. Sometimes it's so bad that i wonder if my life will ever be normal and fear-free again, and then other days i can hardly remember feeling that way.
The last kind have been few and far between lately.

So to someone like me, an event like a tattoo convention, and even the days leading up to one, can be a complete nightmare, and that's pretty much what i expected London to be.
And in some ways, it didn't disappoint (although i obviously wish it had).
Friday was the worst. I had a day-long panic attach, the longest i've ever experienced, and having to deal with clients and work the booth at the same time was, to put it mildly, extremely uncomfortable.
But Saturday and Sunday got a little better, and i ended up having moments of actual enjoyment. And for me, that's about as good as it gets these days.

Although that was pretty vague and brief, i hope that explains the few pictures, and my not wanting to get into things too much.
Maybe i'll try to write more about the stuff i'm dealing with at another time, i hope i will because writing helps me deal, but i still need to decide what the right amount of personal is.
So for now, this is as much as i feel like sharing about that weekend.


And we're back

Convention family part one


Convention family part two


Allan working and getting interviewed at the same time... there was a lot of that going on this year!

Fucking awesome

Kate took this!

A break by the water

Bringing only one pair of pants will sometimes lead to having to borrow your husbands far too large jeans (also, my belly looks really fat in this picture... i'm hoping it's because i just ate!)

It finally happened!

Walked by here on the way to the airport

As awful as the weekend was for me at times, there was good stuff too.
It was a successful weekend for the shop, as we had one of the busiest booths of the show, and for once we had stickers and business cards too!
We met up with some really great friends, and made some new acquaintances too, which is always nice.
But i am hoping that next year will be easier for me on a personal level. It sure as hell can't get much harder.

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