Wednesday, November 27, 2013

... and it's only getting colder

It's absolutely terrifying how little energy i've had in the last week.
I'm hoping it's a monthly lady related thing, cause if it's a winter thing, i might as well go into hibernation right now.
In the last couple of days, it's been so bad that i'll literally fall asleep whenever i sit down on anything more comfortable than an office chair.
If it doesn't improve i might have to give up my decaf for regular coffee!

It's getting real cold in Berlin, so on Monday we went to the local hardware store and bought a ton of insulation materials and film for the windows and doors.
The house is so cold already, and being at work these days means being isolated in separate rooms all day cause the hallway is so cold.
I'll be in the office, someone else will be in the drawing room, a clients friend will be in the waiting room, and someone will be tattooing in the work room.
All doors will be closed.
It's pretty antisocial!
But i'm hoping we can make it better than last winter, at least.
We're learning by living here, and hopefully one day we'll be Riesenbunker experts.

Speaking of the bunker, i accidentally booked in a client on our one year anniversary of living in this house.
I know, i'm an idiot, but even if i'd remembered, i might have booked it anyway, just cause i can't say no to traveling clients.

I can actually believe it's been a year.
I mean, sure time flies by, we all know that, and i know i'm supposed to say "i can't believe it's been a year already!" but looking at the house and all that we've accomplished... i'd say a year sounds about right!

In all my layers this morning

 Sunday ramen date

New record player! I enjoyed listening to Simon and Garfunkel while taking a bath the other day...

My fuschia is an indoor plant now, otherwise she won't make it through the winter

I cut about 15 damaged centimeters off Allan's hair

More indoor projects...

I built a new feeder for the birds (they don't seem to care much now, but when the ground is full of snow, they'll learn to love it!)

The local hardware store

Friday, November 22, 2013

Lucky number nine

I think this might be the last of the film drafts?
I need to finish the one i have in the camera, so i can start posting new(er) stuff, but it's fucking hard to finish a film when there's no sun. None. Haven't seen it in days.
My camera doesn't like that, and well, neither do i, to be honest.
So yeah, that first picture is killing me a little today!

Hey, this is my ninth post this month!
Does this mean i'm back to normal? Unbroken? Can carefully begin to call myself a blogger again, if that term even still exists?
I don't know, but i know that it's my 2013 record, and that makes me feel pretty good.
It's not that i ever planned to slow down this much, you know.
There just wasn't time.

Here are three pictures from the house.
Stairs, hallways and waiting room at the shop.
A few days ago i dreamed that i found a new house, and was going to move.
Dream-me must be crazy, cause this place is the best.


The other day i downloaded a free diary-app, and today i stopped in the middle of the road to write a haiku in it. A fucking haiku.
Seriously, brain, i don't know what your deal is sometimes.

One of the books i ordered arrived today, and it's about meditation, which i have always sucked at, so i figured it was time for some pro tips.
I'm looking forward to having a day off with no people at the house so i can sit down and start reading it.
I'm actually looking forward to a day like that in general.

Thursday, November 21, 2013

Trying to change, always

Have you ever felt like you're in a time or phase of your life where you might be able to really transform, or evolve, if you were only open to it?
It's weird when it happens, and it sometimes seem to be triggered by the strangest things.
Well, i think i'm in one of those phases at the moment, and it's causing a lot of thoughts and feelings, which can easily trigger a lot of anxiety, which i obviously hate, but i still feel like it's a good thing.

A couple of days ago i watched this documentary, and even though i've been wanting to be a healthier person for a long time, watching this movie was for some reason a turning point... which is odd, cause it didn't really tell me anything i didn't already know, and in the beginning i didn't find it particularly well made.
Like i said, the strangest triggers.
It did grow on me, though, and i'd recommend it to any documentary lover.

Anyway, i've been thinking a lot about how to be more aware of what i eat, and the impact it has on the planet.
I know i'm at least trying to do my part by being a vegetarian, and i do feel good about that, but shit, the planet is in trouble, and millions of unique, sentient beings, some smarter than my dog, are being tortured and treated as mere products every day. Not only that, but the production of all that meat, is literally killing the earth.
And if everyone just ate less meat, we might actually be able to save it.
It seems so simple when you think of it like that.
But most people just choose not to see it, as i myself did for years, because if they did see, they'd have to change their lives, and it's hard, and most people just don't want to. I get that.
Changing your eating habits, as well as just being more environmentally conscious, is an inconvenience, and it's easier to just ignore that fact that we're all a part of the problem, just by the way we live our modern lives, than it is to take some form of action.

As an animal lover, thinking of how common and accepted animal cruelty really is has always made me sick, but sometimes it still takes a little something extra, like reading a book or watching a movie, to really get you to change the way you live, you know?
No, i'm not going vegan just yet, but i'm definitely gonna try to eat less dairy and eggs now that i can't stop thinking about how many lives are wasted just so i can eat cheese (delicious cheese).

Anyway, the urge to eat better, and more plant-based, is only part of what i'm going through at the moment, but it comes in little glimpses, and it's like i only see fragments of who i need to be, and what i need to be doing. I guess it'd be too much to ask to see the bigger picture all at once!
This movie, and this one, also really did a number on me, by the way, and prompted me to order a bunch of books on various subjects.
I need to watch less TV and read more books this winter!

Sorry for my naive ranting (although not really sorry, because hey, Amalie's blog here, and if i wanna write like i'm an angsty teen and this is my diary, this is the place to do it!), but i think i need to write more about how i'm feeling in general, and well, this is what's on my mind today.

And although i'm sure this post isn't telling you anything you didn't already know, i'm realizing that being a vegetarian and an animal lover is a huge part of who i am, and i should share my thoughts and feelings about that on the blog, my blog, which is about my life, once in a while.
I've been a vegetarian for years now, and all of a sudden it strikes me as odd that i never write about it.
It probably has to do with not wanting to be labeled "preachy", but whatever... that pretty much happens every time you express an opinion that makes others question their choices anyway.

Anyway, rant over, here are some random iPhone pictures!

 Buts at the BioMarkt

My baking table setup has made baking bread so much easier

I wore this to see Arcade Fire two days ago because the show had a "formal wear or costume" dress code, but boy was i disappointed with Berlin's attempts to dress up... i was expecting everyone to go all out, but most of the people there looked like they'd never dressed up for anything before in their lives!

We're coming up on the last batch of carrots of the season... that short, fat one is my biggest yet!

Coffee sightseeing in Kreuzberg

Very small, very hip

The story of the cactus that keeps dying, and the desperate owner who keeps trying to save it

Shopping for Vietnamese food with Wendy and Wendy last week

Lovely fake flower shop

Last week we bought a new rug, it is well liked by both humans and dog

Monday, November 18, 2013

One of those...

Today is gloomy and gray.
One of those days where it doesn't feel like daytime at all, at any point.
So basically the perfect day to post summer pictures and long for sunlight, sweet sunlight.

Pictures are from around Schöneberg and Kreuzberg.
And from my balcony and kitchen table.

Thursday, November 14, 2013

Random Tuesday at Tsuguharu's house

Several months ago, i think it was before we even moved here, my dad gave me a diorama box he'd made for me.
Full on custom built goodness, ready to be decorated.
It had an inner box, to make decorating it easier, that slides into an outer box, complete with glass and a nice wooden frame.
It even had wiring for a tiny battery powered light!
In other words, already a work of art, and for the longest time i wasn't sure what to do with it.

But eventually i came up with an idea, said to hell with the pressure, and got to work.
It took a while, because as you'll see, it's very detailed, and everything is handmade from scratch. 
But now it's finally done, yay!
And even though the internet seems to give very few shits about my art, i'm gonna post it here anyway!
Hell, i might even post it twice, since i took some analog pictures too, but let's see how they turn out. You never know.

The diorama is a free interpretation of a day in the life of one of my favorite painters.
And his cats, of course.
Today he's just hanging out, eating some food, perhaps doodling in his red sketchbook, eating some food and definitely smoking a lot of cigarettes.
I hope he enjoys this relaxed day in the company of his best friends.

It feels good to finish stuff once in a while.

Foujita's Day Off

This guy loved cats, maybe you can tell?

His clothes, and the curtains, are made from vintage kimono fabric from Japan

I found some good materials, like the wallpaper, at this store here in Berlin

Very small pencils... also, i'd keep an eye on that cat on the table, he seems a little too excited about the fish if you ask me

My version of some of his actual paintings... tiny watercolors are fun to make!

Dinner is served (the miso soup with tofu and spring onions is my favorite)

Lamp, obviously

Finished and in its box, ready to be put up (i found a good spot in our living room)

Friday, November 8, 2013

Never sorry

Yesterday i was feeling really stressed, so i gave myself the day off and watched documentaries on the couch with Lucifer.
I had popcorn too.
It was pretty great, i tell ya.

I watched Ai Weiwei: Never Sorry and while i liked the movie a lot, and admire Ai Weiwei a whole lot as a person and activist, i'm still not sure how i feel about him as an artist.
Or how i feel about any artist who basically hire other people to create their art for them.
I know it's nothing new, but it still weirds me out!
There was one guy in the movie, i think he was working on what appeared to be a pretty complex dragon sculpture, and he described himself as as an assassin, a hired gun, just carrying out his boss' orders.
And he seemed very content, but still, what he was creating was very detailed, and i'm not sure Ai Weiwei could ever do that?
Like, when you're an artist at that level, aren't you more of a... designer? Or a highly imaginative businessman?
And if the very existence of your multi million dollar art empire depends on the work of a lot of other people besides yourself, couldn't you maybe call it an art collective? An art family, instead of one persons name, one person getting all the glory?
I don't know.
It was a good movie.
It actually reminded me of this French documentary about the fashion industry, where you get a look behind the scenes of a Chanel collection, i think.
I remember being completely shocked at how little Karl Lagerfeld actually did.
He came by the seamstresses workshop, dropped off a pretty, but vague, sketch, and left everything up to a group of experienced ladies.
Everything; the fabric, draping, beading, all the things that make a fantastic couture dress, was left up to these women who got absolutely no credit for their extremely hard work.
I tried googling the documentary, and i think it might be this one, if anyone cares, but i'm not 100% sure.

I don't know where i was going with that rant.
Maybe i just wanted to post something besides "this is what i did today and here are some pictures".
Anyway, here are some pictures!

The day after i watched Moonrise Kingdom with Nick and Allan

My first solo bread-making adventure

Old trusty and a good cup of coffee

Schöneberger wilderness adventure

No dogs allowed... ahem

Nature taking over

Rainy day on my way to the hobby store

Lucifer has many friends in the neighborhood, and this one always carries treats

Sunday flea market date with Allan and Sarah

Presents all the way from Hong Kong

Cats for a diorama project i'm working on... why can't i be obsessed with making something serious and profitable?

For the same project... pretty tiny stuff!

My apple tree (have i even posted pictures of the apple tree i bought and planted in the garden?! I hope so!) made tiny, but delicious apples... i'm very proud of it for delivering the goods!

Nick drew me a Trek-paca

That day i bought a kind of expensive penguin sweater and put on red lipstick


Ps. It's walk-in weekend at my shop, so come get tattooed and have a cup of coffee with us!