I'm feeling a little trapped and confused at the moment, nothing new there, but happy too, and oddly enough not stressed or anxious.
Odd because we're going to Japan in a week and this is one of the things i'd normally be freaking out over.
Travel is a huge anxiety trigger for me, but Tokyo has always been different because i feel so at home there.
But now, it's been over a year since i was there last, and i'm so scared that it's gone and changed on me! I mean, i know it has, but i guess i worry that it won't feel like home anymore?
I hope it will, and i hope i'll feel the same love for it as i always have.
I'm still in the process of teaching myself to feel less anticipatory anxiety, and i gotta say, it's gotten better already. Instead of worrying about things i have no way of changing or predicting, i try to look forward to things instead. Like seeing our friends again and hearing how they've been, meeting girlfriend Izumi's new baby, and shopping. Oh, god, shopping.
So in a way it's basically the same thoughts, i'm just trying to see them in a positive light, instead of a negative one.
One thing that does worry me a little it food and drinks. Japan has always been easy for me, cause i'm not a picky eater and i love all Japanese food, but now...
Just being a vegetarian there is hard, cause they love to put meat and fish in just about everything, and now, with the whole "eating healthy, no white bread, dairy, sugar and caffeine" i've been into lately, i'm wondering what i will be able to eat and drink? There's almost nothing i hate more than being the difficult one, and i'm being that person already cause i don't eat meat, so maybe i'll just have to take a break from my diet and hope my body doesn't punish me too hard.
At least i'll have my laptop and workout dvd's and there'll be a whole room in our apartment just for that!
Going to work today, it was windy and freezing
On to a completely different subject!
Recently i've been thinking of adding a tattoo related tab to the blog.
Like, pictures of my tattoos, links to artists and stuff like that.
Would anyone be interested in that?
There's a tendency amongst heavily tattooed people to be very casual about their tattoos and act like they're no big deal. Hell, they barely even recognize the fact that they have any, and you shouldn't either! They'll get super annoyed when people ask them questions about their tattoos even though it's pretty natural, in my opinion, for people to be curious.
I mean, yes, some questions are stupid, and some are even mean and rude, but most are friendly and comes of a place of genuine interest.
Of course i prefer talking about tattoos with people who have some knowledge of the subject, but i'm still always happy to talk about tattoos, cause they do happen to be my hobby and my job and they're awesome!
My point, if there ever was one, is that i'm aware that a lot of people come to my blog in part because of tattoos (stats don't lie!), either my own, or the work being done at my shop, or that one ancient post with Matryoshkas that still get a shit ton of traffic.
And i'm totally fine with that, and i actually think it might be fun for me too to have pictures of all my tattoos in one place since i've never had that, and i honestly don't even know how many i have anymore (i'm sorry if that last part sounded pretentious, but seriously, no one counts after 10, am i right?)
So yeah, i think i'm gonna start rummaging through folders on my laptop and see what i can come up with!