I'm exhausted and sweaty; not because of the session, but because i'm sick, but apart from the physical condition i happen to be in, i feel great.
I feel that sweet relief that you can only feel when you've had a burden lifted, and learned something new at the same time.
I feel positive and i feel happy.
It's funny, but sometimes, some of the things my first therapist told me didn't really sink in until i read it in a book later and got one of those "aha! truth!" moments, and sometimes it was the other way around.
Today, some of the things i've read in books were put into other words and spoken to me in a way that somehow made more sense.
I gotta make space for the anxiety. I gotta be big and spacious enough for it to live inside of me comfortably.
I'm not gonna fight it, or cure myself, take control or get over it.
I'm gonna live with the fear, in harmony, cause the feelings that cause my anxiety are the same feelings that make me special, that make me empathic and creative, that make me me.
Next time i get anxious i'm gonna try and invite it in and coexist instead of trying to fight it.
I've been reading about these techniques in various books and they do work.
I'm gonna do that anxiety book and exercise post i promised a few you who are in the same boat real soon.
I made this for Lucifer the other day... don't tell me he's not the cutest little Starfleet officer you've ever seen
You know how i usually love twitter?
Not so much today.
So much whining and bitching and complaining. Petty feelings coming in from all corners of the earth.
I was actually considering taking a little break for a day or so. Not that i expect people to somehow get less whiny or anything like that. I know that's not likely to happen.
I did, however enjoy finding a bunch of links to good articles and videos about Christopher Hitchens.
Of course they were brought on by the sad fact that he'd passed away, but i enjoyed the articles anyway.... and the videos of him wiping the floor with Tony Blair. Those are always amusing.
Anyway, i disagreed with him on a number of issues, but i really admired him and a person and a writer, and "God is not Great" is one of those books i'm gonna go back and read more than once.
And i look forward to reading "Hitch-22". As soon as i'm done obsessing over dancing dragons, that is!
*Actually it's been, like, over and hour because Helle called.