I'm not sure, but i think that Allan and Lucifer may have had something to do with it.
They just feel so good to be around, so when they're not coming, well, it makes it that much harder to go.
So i had a relaxing day at the apartment i loathe* instead, and even though it doesn't feel like i've done much today, i did manage to do some laundry, dye some clothes, draw, stitch, shop for the Halloween party with Allan, take a nice long walk with Lucifer, listen to the new Tom Waits, do pilates and yoga, answer some emails and update stuff on the blogs... and chill and drink tea.
I may feel like a slacker, but at least i'm a productive slacker!
And if nothing else, my hair has been growing today. Granted, it does that when i'm busy too, but it struck me today; even if i did nothing all damn day, my hair would still grow. And that's doing something too.
The living room is my office these days... god, how i want to move
I am currently reading one of the anxiety books that was recently recommended to me, and holy shit, does it feel like it's been written specifically for me. Like, it's creepy how well this strange woman knows me.
I'm doing the work and using the techniques, and so far, i'm seeing some real results. Not that i'm cured, but it's just good to be doing something.
When i've finished this book and started one of the others, i'll do a little post with titles and stuff, for those who are interested.
Amalie's Anxiety Blog, much?
*Ok, loathe is a big word, but i'm still so sick of living here...