Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Homebase

I had planned to go to the shop today, but somehow i ended up staying home.
I'm not sure, but i think that Allan and Lucifer may have had something to do with it.
They just feel so good to be around, so when they're not coming, well, it makes it that much harder to go.
So i had a relaxing day at the apartment i loathe* instead, and even though it doesn't feel like i've done much today, i did manage to do some laundry, dye some clothes, draw, stitch, shop for the Halloween party with Allan, take a nice long walk with Lucifer, listen to the new Tom Waits, do pilates and yoga, answer some emails and update stuff on the blogs... and chill and drink tea.
I may feel like a slacker, but at least i'm a productive slacker!
And if nothing else, my hair has been growing today. Granted, it does that when i'm busy too, but it struck me today; even if i did nothing all damn day, my hair would still grow. And that's doing something too.


The living room is my office these days... god, how i want to move


I am currently reading one of the anxiety books that was recently recommended to me, and holy shit, does it feel like it's been written specifically for me. Like, it's creepy how well this strange woman knows me.
I'm doing the work and using the techniques, and so far, i'm seeing some real results. Not that i'm cured, but it's just good to be doing something.
When i've finished this book and started one of the others, i'll do a little post with titles and stuff, for those who are interested.
Amalie's Anxiety Blog, much?

*Ok, loathe is a big word, but i'm still so sick of living here...

13 comments:

  1. Im looking forward to this post about books. Glad they do help! :) The sitting room looks cosy! 

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  2. Glad the book is helping! I commented before and forgot to mention that one of the things that really helped me was when I was referred to a physiotherapist. I remember getting the referral and thinking...huh? A physiotherapist? Don't they usually deal with sports injuries and things? Turns out there are mental health physiotherapists who deal specifically with anxiety, and although I didn't get to have too many sessions with her, the ones I had were brilliant. Like, she could tell just by looking at me that I was anxious because of my posture and breathing and so on...those things are caused by anxiety but they then also make it worse, because certain chemicals are released into your system when you are shallow breathing/tensed up and so on, which in turn make you more anxious, and the cycle continues. It was really interesting and she did some great relaxation techniques with me. I don't know how easy it is to see someone like that in Denmark but it's well worth looking into (I didn't even know mental health physiotherapists existed, and I don't think many people realise they're out there). Hope the books continue to help!

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  3. Yeah, it's awesome to have these books, i'm really lookind forward to reading all of them!

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  4. I never heard of that either, but it makes perfect sense. I'm working on my breathing a lot with yoga, but i can definitely see how having someone do that kind of exercise with you would be a great help. I'll ask my doctor next time i see him!

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  5. Wow, my slacking and your slacking are two entirely different things!  I wish I was as productive as you when I am slacking.  :)

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  6. YAY! So glad the books are helping! I totally had the same reaction when I started reading about that stuff. It is amazing that people with anxiety often have the same funny thoughts and you think your the only person in the world who could think that way. Well happy reading! (I think I need to pull out the book again this week, feeling like I might need a refresher). That's the great thing about the books, they are always there when you need em :) xo  

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  7. Just try writing down everything you've done on a day when you think you've done nothing. You'd be surprised!

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  8. I've had a therapist tell me a lot of those things too, but it is completely different hearing it from someone who's lived through the exact same things as yourself. I have a long way to go, but that book is helping me so much already. Thanks so much again for the recommendation :)

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  9. Yay, so glad to hear it's helping! I think that's why I liked her book so much too- because I knew she could completely relate. :)

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  10. If the title of the book is not a secret, could I have it? 

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  11. Also you mentioned a therapist. I know there is plenty of them who you have to pay to, but I was wandering, maybe there are some free (that u can be send to by your GP)? God knows I could use one:)

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  12. Hi Martin,  "From Panic to Power" by Lucinda Bassett is the one i'm reading now. Its kind of cheesy and American, but it's helping me a bunch, so who cares, right? 
    The other two i bought but haven't read yet are "Embracing the Fear: Learning to Manage Anxiety and Panic Attacks" by Judith Bemis and "The Anxiety and Phobia Workbook" by Edmund J. Bourne.

    As for therapists, there's a ton of stupid rules, like if you're over 37 and depressed they won't pay part of the fee, but if you have a good doctor like me, getting a referral isn't that hard. Might want to say it's for depression and not anxiety unless you're under 27... more stupid rules. And make sure the therapist you see knows about anxiety. But i really recommend reading up a bit before getting counseling, it really helps to be able to identify your symptoms before talking to someone. I wish i'd done that.

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  13.  Thanks a lot, I'll check it out. I'm not scared of cheesy American stuff:))

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