You may or may not have noticed this, but i rarely post anything really personal here on the blog.
Not that any of the things i do post here aren't honest or me, i just try not to overshare, if you know what i mean.
In general i don't really post about politics, current events, the state of the planet, things like that.
That's not because i don't have an opinion on the subjects, in fact i'm very interested in news and politics, and i have a strong opinion about pretty much everything, including the things i know nothing about.
The reason i try not to post anything too serious, is that i want this blog to be a relaxing, positive and hopefully entertaining read.
We're all bombarded with enough negative crap as it is, right?
But today has been kind of a crappy day for me, and i feel like sharing.
That may be a bad idea, but whatever.
This morning (actually at noon, but that's still morning to me) i had a doctors appointment.
Not my regular guy, a specialist.
I'd been there not too long ago, getting a tissue sample done.
So today i went in for the results.
They weren't bad, in the sense that i don't have cancer, and that's always a good thing.
But they weren't good either, meaning i need surgery.
Lucky for me it wasn't super urgent, so i can still go to Japan, but sometime after i get back i'm gonna have to go to the hospital for about three or four days.
This isn't the upsetting part.
I'm not afraid of hospitals or surgery.
I don't enjoy either one, but they're not something i worry about.
What really bothers me is where they place the incision in this procedure.
It's not gonna be pretty.
I'm not a great healer and even the smallest cut leaves a scar on me.
Last time i had surgery i even quit smoking, so i would heal better (and i loved smoking!), but i didn't.
I don't wanna subject you to the gory details, but lets just say that if i ever consider starting a new career as a pirate, i'm in luck!
I sound so terribly vain, and i'm really not, at least no more than most people, but having a big, visible scar has just never been part of the plan, you know?
I have enough health and cosmetic problems, and stupid insecurities, i don't need this crap too.
Sorry for the pity-me rant, i swear it's done and i won't talk about it again.
At least until i actually have to go in for the surgery.
I wonder if the hospital has wi-fi?
The end this shitfest of a post on a lighter note, i give you "Kitten-in-a-japanese-teapot"!